I start what I would describe as the third leg of my Stage 4 cancer journey tomorrow. These two and a half years seem like a separate lifetime in itself.
I’ve learned more about myself and life in this time frame than the other sixty-five years combined. This may sound incredibly stupid, but in a sense looking back… I’m grateful this happened to me.
With the exception of me occaisionally trolling and ‘demonizing’ some of the Trump fake Christians on the internet…I feel as if my heart has softened and maybe even widened. I’ve been touched by so many wonderful people both at the Integris Cancer Center and the OKC Wellness Center that the list would easily fill a page. It seems as if every person has a journey story of their own.
My family has been wonderful. My inner core of friends are still with me, but I don’t ever talk the Trump fake Christian talk with them out of my love and respect for their loyal friendship.
With Stage 4 bone cancer there’s never this moment where you beat your chest and declare all out victory. You get up every morning and do things in a holistic manner and take little incremental victories as they come along.
When there’s a red light, you pause, work thru it and ease thru the green lights. Matthew McConaughey taught me that his book Green Lights. Even though Matthew is a Texas Longhorn…I’ve always loved him since his epic trial scene in a Time to Kill. I feel the Jake Brigance in me from time to time.
But most of all you ‘slowly’ learn to accept, trust, and have faith in God that at the end it will all be okay. Maybe even glorious.
But I will add there has to be the competitive part in your soul as well. You have to be a fighter and a believer in yourself. There are some times you have to draw a line in the sand.
Take care.
Love, Mike